Do you know what’s intensely difficult? Having to wait for something that you REALLY want and not knowing if you’ll ever get it. It’s hard to wait. It’s even harder thinking you may spend a ton of time waiting, get what you want… And then realize it’s not what you wanted. Recently this was a topic at my little sister’s youth group; being patient and waiting for God’s time. I’ve been doing that, but sometimes it gets really old.
Right now, there’s a guy that I really like. I’ve liked him for a while now… About 11 months. For a freshman in high school, that’s a pretty long time. But for me… Not really. It’s just different this time. There has never been someone else I’ve known whose company I’ve enjoyed as much. Even though I know I’m not ready for marriage, he is the person who I would want to spend the rest of my life with. Why would I settle for anything less? But waiting plays a big part in these things. I don’t feel like I’m even ready to date at this point. But I still want something. I want to be his best friend.
It’s been really difficult keeping my mouth shut this whole time since I have a tendency of spilling the beans to any boy after a certain period of time. When this happens, two things can occur.
#1- he likes you too and some sort of relationship culminates
#2- he does not and things become… Well, awkward and very painful
Unfortunately, every time I open my mouth, I end up with the #2 response, which, like #2, stinks. Yes, that pun was intended. No, I do not regularly use bathroom humor… Anyways, sometimes I get really impatient. I wake up in the morning and have such a huge sense of longing that I can’t contain myself and let the cat out of the bag. But that isn’t going to happen this time, no matter how long I have to wait. This time I’m waiting for His time. God knows when/if things are supposed to work out one way or the other, and I know he has my best interests in mind.
What do I do to keep my patience? I pray every night before I fall asleep. I pray for my future husband, and myself. I pray for my high school “Prince Charming” (oh the irony…) and his future wife. And then I pray for Prince Charming and I- that it would happen when God wants it, if God wants it, that I will be okay with his plan, and that our friendship will glorify him as long as it lasts. So far, things are going great. God really does know what he’s doing. We all just need to wait for His time.
P.S. If he’s Prince Charming, does that make me the damsel in distress?
First of all – this is SUPER COOL that you started writing! I have been blogging for over 3 years now and before that I kept a journal – especially when I was your age. I still have them on my book shelf in my bedroom and every once in a while I bring them down and read some of the postings for fun. It seems like a very long time ago – but it is still me with all my feelings and emotions. We don’t change on the inside even though we get older and have other experiences to draw on.
In response to this article – I am impressed that you are so in touch with your feelings and can express them. Believe me – the right guy will appreciate this – in time. Guys your age are pretty young and immature yet – give them about 5 years and things will start to be a little different. They are in a very different place from girls – that being said there is always that one guy that is much more mature than his friends. He’s the one who likes to talk, hang out and develop a relationship with a girl on a “friendship” level. But there are not many like him. But from what I know about you and your heart – you are WORTH WAITING FOR and any guy would be lucky to be with you. But you may have to wait a while for him to grow up a bit
I’m adding you to my blog list on my blog page so I can read your articles as they come. Can’t wait
Thanks! I’m super excited to be blogging! I decided I didn’t want to coop all my writing up in a notebook and hide it somewhere that no one would find it… Haha.
I’m totally fine with waiting for a guy that is worth it, and I know that one day when God has a man in my plan, it will just be that much more special:)
Thrilled to read YOUR blog!! I’m proud of you for writing and for your waiting!!
The waiting is dreadfully hard! The news I must share is that even when the prince comes along (and he will!! God’s got the perfect man for you, beautiful girl), you still find yourself waiting (don’t you love me) because as wonderful as that man might be, only The King meets our deepest longing.
So THAT’S why I think he gives us the gift of waiting, because within the heartwrenching process we cling for dear life to Him who will one day come riding in on a white horse…
Keep writing. Keep sharing your heart, Miranda!! The world needs your story
Kim
Thank you:)
I could not agree more that all the waiting has a purpose (and isn’t heaven going to be infinitely greater because we know what struggling on Earth is like? I can’t wait!)
I will most definitely keep writing! No worries about that:)